Sunday, May 6, 2012

Monday, April 5, 2010

Ugh...what NOT to do...

Email the lyrics and song link to the one who broke it...with this written too.

Heard this song while working out today... I heard alot of songs that spoke to me... this one I had to share. I don't want to be your cage...I want to be your nest. Be a bird in the clouds like you are, just I hope that bird comes home one day. I want to be like a good nest to you, strong...supportive...safe...

Amazingly...I had no songs about nests...maybe you could write it. I miss your music around the house.

Meghan


SHOOT ME!!!!!!!!!!!

If Pain is Weakness Leaving the Body...WTF is Vulnerability?

So, today I began the acceptance of my situation and hence the begining of the destruction of my broken heart. It wasn't really all that eventful. I realized I couldn't allow myself to be fooled into thinking my relationship would magically re-appear. Two, I realized tenderness to the person who broke your heart hurts worse than being without them (crap repeated rejection sucks...why would I let this continue?). Three, I stuck at "using my words to describe how I feel...I muddle through them and I'm as elloquent as a broken necked song bird.

So, I went to my music. Why is it that when you are in the most pain EVERY song is about you and your failed relationship. Its magic! So, there is this song by a forgotten band TRAVIS its called The Cage...It really brought me a little closer to understanding the broken heart...atleast...maybe a little. Check out the song. It almost makes me feel like I'm succeding in this even if ever so little...just glad I'm not the bird... http://www.last.fm/music/Travis/_/The+Cage

You broke the bread
We drank the wine
Your lip was bleedin' but it was fine
Come on inside, babe, across the line
I love you more than I
But then this bird just flew away
She was never meant to stay
Oh to keep her caged would just delay the spring
You broke your word
Now that's a lie
We had a deal that you would try
Come on inside, girl, I think it's time
High time we drew the line
But then this bird just flew away
While I looked the other way
Oh to keep her caged would just delay the spring
Oh you broke my soul
Dear you stole the plot
You left an empty shot
There's nothing left here 'cos you took the lot
An empty cage is all I've got
'Cos when your bird has flown away
She was never meant to stay
Oh to keep her caged would just delay the spring
To keep her caged would just delay the spring

A Day of Reckoning 4.5.10

It wasn't a late April fool's joke.

"We need to be adult about this," began what I knew to be the situation I never ever wanted to be in, nor did I think it could happen.

Its funny, I was standing outside of the transplant waitinglist ward at Northwestern University when my heart was broken. They really don't have a transplant list for this kind of failure however. But everyone will tell you they know the cure.

Cliche after cliche after cliche. I know everyone means well...but isn't there something that ANYONE can say that actually dulls the pain like a swift shot of moraphine making its way through your veins? No...we have only come so far as to relieve the body...but not the heart.

So here it is. My new great adventure. I will write, and I will write with purpose. I will find the method, the path, to fix...no! No one can fix a broken heart, but I think I can do one better. Welcome to my journey...my journey to break my broken heart.

Please join my on my quest, voyage, healing as I try to find what it is we all need after a break up. This blog may be lame...it may do me no good...it may make you sleepy... the only way to know is to keep up with my meananderings. Share with others. Tell me to piss off. But, do get involved.